urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:acroamatic0202 [look deeper] acroamatic0202 2007-02-26T03:17:50Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:acroamatic0202:580 2007-02-26T03:15:08Z 2007-02-26T03:17:50Z <p class="MsoNormal">I was once asked "What is a stronger emotion, Love or Hate?"<br /> Blindly and naively I responded, "love;" when asked by the love of my life <br /> I asked him the same question back<br /> When asked to justify my choice I gave him a situation, a common, innocent, stupid situation<br /> I told him that if we were in a position where someone pulled a gun on us, I would take the bullet for him and end my life for him<br /> At the time, I really did believe this<br />I was so blinded by love that it was as if I forgot any pain or hate I had ever felt before<br /> It seemed hate had completely been erased from my life and love was the only emotion that floated around me and affected me<br /> It's different now though<br /> Now that the love has been painfully and abruptly stricken from my now morbid life I understand how wrong I was <br /> Hate is a much stronger emotion <br /> Hate changes a person, makes them feel ways they wouldn't normally believe they could<br /> Hate makes people do things they couldn't fathom possible for themselves<br /> Hate makes a person hurt others, and themselves<br /> I thought of the original situation I had given in defense to my first answer to the question, the situation with the gun<br /> I changed the situation around in my mind and put myself behind the gun, being the person who wanted so badly to end someone else’s life that I was at the final step, waiting to pull the trigger and drastically change everything<br /> I realized hate would drive me to that point, and that if I had ever reached that point in my life where I killed someone, it would be much worse than taking a bullet for a boy I loved<br />Love can lead you to give up your life for someone, but hate can drive you to kill<br />You have to live with the decision you made and the fact that you unnaturally took the life of another human being; and living with that is much worse ending your life quickly<br /> But the I realized something else<br /> Hate and love are almost exactly the same thing<br /> The expression about there being a fine line between love and hate, is perhaps the most true expression that anyone could ever say<br /> If I were to ever kill someone, chances are that I would have had to have loved them tremendously before I came to the point in my life where I hated them<br />The most probable reason for me hating them would be them not returning the love I had for them<br /> Without love blinding me now, I can see that hate is stronger and that love just masks everything <br /> Love is wonderful, but it blinds you and changes everything <br /> When he answered the question, he said hate<br /> I guess that asshole knew the truth all along, and I guess he never really loved me to begin with<br /> Now where did I put that gun...</p>